My Little Angel

     I don't claim to know what it is like to have a child that I hold and will have to shortly say goodbye. I do however know the gut wrenching heartache of that possibility for a period of time.  I may not know the loss of losing a child that I knew of before he or she is born, but I do know the heartache of waiting, hoping, and pleding that my baby makes it to birth and beyond.  I am only sharing these stories because there is a family I know that is hurting.  There is a mother, a father, Grandparents, sons, daughters, aunts, uncles, grandsons, brothers, sisters, children, and soon to be cousin, are facing this possibility of saying goodbye to a little one before they should have to.  There is a family that is hurting and a little boy diagnosed with a rare condition that could cut his already short life shorter than it should be.

     I wish I had the words to say to give comfort to everyone.  I wish I had all the answers.  All I know is God is a Big God.  I know at times like this it is hard to understand why He allows things like this to happen.  I don’t know the answer to that except that He loves us and He is good.  He sees the big picture.  A good friend of mine, matter in fact the grandfather of this little boy his favorite scripture is Jeremiah 29:11. It says: For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”  I don’t know what that future is or what it looks like but God does.  Through out my life I have been through and have seen many tragedies and faced much heartache.  I have asked the questions why many times.  I have been angry at God on a number of occasions.  I have watched family and friends suffer.  I too have suffered but I have come to realize that God is faithful.  He has promised to never leave us or forsake us.  I know what it is like to live with God in my life and without.  I would much rather have Him apart of it than not.  Over the last couple of years I have had to come face to face with what I truly believe.  There is no doubt that God is who He says He is!  He is my Savior, my Friend, my Father, my All and All.  Without Him I would have no hope.  He came to give me and all who believe life.  I am thankful that God is patience and true to His promises.  My biggest prayer of course is for this family and the little boy, but that if you don’t know God as your personal Savior that you will seek Him out and find Him.

Before I go I want to share a poem I wrote for the mother of this little boy.  I wrote this from my heart and from the experiences that I faced with my son J.J.

When I was sitting in the ER waiting to find out what was wrong with him and than finding out that he had a heart defect.  Also before he was born being told he wouldn’t make it and that I needed to abort him because he would be born with major defects.  This was my hearts cry.

My Little Angel

A little angel I hold in my arms I know that God sent him to me to show me His love from above.   As I hold him in my arms I never want to let him go.   As I look into his eyes my love for him grows.   He is so sweet and so pure Dear God I pray for a cure.  I know that my time with him may not be as long as I would hope it would be, but I am so thank for to You for giving him to me.  For I know now what true love really means.  Words can not describe the joy and the pain I feel in my heart.  Oh God the only relief I have is because of you I know that we will never truly be apart.  For I know if and when you choose to take this little angel back I will be with him again because of what You have done.  You so loved the world that you gave your one and only son that whosoever believes in him will not parish but have everlasting life.  Sitting here holding my son You have given me a new insight.  I pray for strength for me, for my other little ones, my family, and my precious little son.  Help me hold it together and not lose sight.  Dear God, help fight for what is right.  Oh how I love my sweet baby boy and he has brought me and so many others so much joy.  I know that You love him too and he truly belong to You.  I know that You will take care of him and will continue to love him even if You have to love him up above.  Please Dear God; comfort my heart because I don’t ever want to be apart.  He is my treasure, my gift, my heart.  Thank you though for the time I have, for this little angel I hold in my arms I know that You have sent him to me to show me what true love really means.

Please continue to prayer for this family.

Trish Iiams