This morning my son JJ texted me and asked if I would pick up Starbucks on my way home since he didn’t have school today, so I did. As I pulled up to the window to pay a beautiful young lady with the biggest smile on her and she said that the person ahead of me paid for me. I of course was pleasantly surprised. I decided to pay it forward as well and pay for the people behind me. I drove away and a wave of emotions hit me. It was like an emotional release. Everything that I have been keeping bottled up inside all came to the surface and I started to cry. It wasn’t little tears, but a full out sob. Life has hit me hard lately and I have been trying to be the strong one trying to fix everything by myself. So many changes going on in my life, health issues, my parents, my children, work, financial hardship, our van seems to be on its last leg (wheel), our house and the sewer backup, disappointments……. You name it, all came pouring out. God knew exactly what I needed and gave it to me through a kind person paying for my Starbucks this morning. The thought that came to my mind was, “Someone noticed me and someone cared.” I am usually the one trying to notice others, but someone noticed me and did a simple and kind gesture that made a world of difference. At that moment I felt like I mattered. God once again reminded me that He hears, He sees, He listens, He knows, He cares, and most of all He loves. Whoever this person is that paid for my coffee this morning, thank you.
“Thank you God for once again showing me that I matter and that you love me. My burdens are heavy, but Yours is light. Please forgive me for not trusting You enough to let You have all my burdens and for me trying to handle everything by myself. You have always provided and always will. Dear God, I can’t tell you how much I love and appreciate all that you do for me and my family. Right now I am in the midst of the trials and I may not see an end, but You do. You see the big picture and as You had me tell a friend, there is blessings in the darkness; we just may not see them.”