As sit here alone this morning as the kids are still in bed
my heart feels calm. The last several
months I have been planning for a Christian retreat called Koinonia that we
just had over this past weekend. I was
so nervous all the way until the time we said goodbye. I struggled with thoughts that I had to do
everything right, what were people going to think about me and that I am not
worthy. I have been to these retreats many times and each and every time God
moved. For some reason I thought that I
would be in the way of God moving because of my nerves. Speaking in front of people always has been
hard for me and leading is another out of the box thing for me. I have lead Girls retreats before and they
were hard for me as well, but God always showed up. In the back of my mind I knew that He would
this time as well.
Friday started off bumpy as I fought a battle in my
mind. It wasn’t until I said that this
isn’t about me but about God did I feel a shift in the atmosphere. I don’t know about others but I thought that
this was one of the most power God lead weekends I have ever been on. He showed up in a mighty way despite me. Thank
you God!! He definitely had me doing things
out of the box and I had such a wonderful team that didn’t care what their
assigned task were, but everyone helped everyone. They didn’t question the
changes or the last minute additions, they just served. Oh how that blessed my heart.
God is amazing and when we get out of our own way He does
more than anyone could ever imagine. Everywhere
I turned I saw God at work changing lives.
I watched hearts healed and miracles happen. It is so hard to find the
right words to describe the things I witnessed.
All I can say is that God is good.
He used others to be the change for others. Each person there touched someone through
their love for one another.
There were so many attacks on myself and the rest of the
team prior to the weekend and on the weekend, but everyone armed themselves
with the full armor of God and came out to battle. The prayer team was hit hard but others came
along side and lifted them up. That just
shows you just how powerful prayer is.
The people of God came through in a mighty way and the battle was won.
The presence of God was so strong. Every person who talked you can tell were
being the voice for God. The small
groups united and support one another. Every team member did their job with joy
even if it meant standing in the cold to be a light for someone else.
I wish I could express the thanks I have in my heart for all
who came, but I can’t find the right words.
Even though I came home tired I felt rejuvenated and on fire
to be the change, to be the light and a voice for God. I will continue to pray
for everyone as I know that God is not done, but this is just the beginning.
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